Dear diary,

How i wish there is a manual guide book to life. That everything I should know, should do is all written in it. How good if there is a fate book where I will know what's in it for me for the next 10, 20 years? As I grow older, I realize growing up is not easy, at all. Why didn't anyone warn me about that before?

I really dislike what I'm doing right now and sometimes I really dislike myself for being so un-myself. And above all, I hate it the most when I don't know what do I really want in life. I have friends who see themselves being a very powerful woman, a successful woman, marrying a rich man and etc. As for my case, oh right, I do not have any.

I always vision myself being married to Working Man and make babies and grow old together. And it hits me really hard when it realized that, what if I don't end up being with him? Ahhh, sigh.

I am having a major career crisis. A part of me enjoy what I' doing and the very big part of me actually hates what I'm doing everyday.

Ok, I should stop ranting before I hate myself even more.

Love,
Steph

Some people know her as JingLin,
Born on 27031988,
She's short and chubby,
She can be happy and emofied at the same time,
She cries a lot - like a cry baby, Her clumsiness is beyond your imagination,
She's not quite of your girl next door,
You'll learn more about her when you know her,

She loves her family & friends